My Panic Attack
Caged inside my own mind
With the devil, the monster
Longing for escape
Clawing at the door like an animal
Depression beneath my fingernails
Desperate
I didn’t ask for this
Heart pounds, it’s happening again
Flushed red hot, shaking
Hazy eyed, surreal
Fear, deadly fear, like murder
Poised with a knife
Frantic
Bloody mind, dazed, shocked
Harassed, tortured
Stomach turns, sick and twisted
Thoughts racing at velocity
I am horrified, embarrassed
Gasping, bent over
Trapped, I can’t breathe
I didn’t ask for this frenzy
Hands clenching, quivering
Dread, real and heavy
And from my mouth,
Lies, half-truths, excuses
Death to my soul
Ultimate annihilation
Caged with the monster
Depression under my fingernails
Flushed red hot, terrified
Longing for escape
Deadly fear
Repeat, echo
Again and again
Pulse in my ears
It’s happening.. again
Step right up, it's about to get crazy in the hizzy