This post is going to be such a mis-mash because I’ve got so much on my mind today! First off, it’s reading. Yesterday I ignored all the things I was supposed to do online, like redoing my cover for Createspace or writing on the blog or writing anything at all, like the idea that was floating around in my head for a possible novella, all so I could read, read, read. I really do have a problem with reading. I freaking LOVE IT. And I love discovering new authors as well. Let me tell you, this whole indie author thing is a grab bag, but it’s also amazing because you can really find some superb authors who may never have been published without taking the initiative to do so themselves. Plus you can always find a book for a great bargain. I’ll give you an example of what I mean. I’ve picked up 3 books lately from 3 different indie authors. Colleen Hoover, Karina Halle and Jessica Sorensen. All these books were $2.99 and under and 2 out of the 3 were really quite excellent. For Colleen Hoover, the book was Hopeless a tale about a girl who discovers dark things about her past. This book could have been completely trite and overdone, however it wasn’t. It was a great read! There were some small things that annoyed me about the writing, but overall I found it to be believable, relatable and a good story. Secondly is Karina Halle who I just finished this morning, Sins and Needles (although I also read the first of her Experiment in Terror Series as well). Sins and Needles, again an excellent read. I really enjoyed it! The characters were flawed and definitely relatable and even though things happened to them and they were in involved in stuff that normal people aren’t, it was really believable. And the pace was great, the tension was great, the twists. I highly recommend it. And for $2.99 who wouldn’t take a chance on it? Thirdly was Jessica Sorensen’s the Coincidence of Callie and Kayden. I don’t like to bash on other writers but this book really wasn’t great. The characters seemed more stock than deep and there were parts that were rather laughable to me. The writing wasn’t great. So yes, indie authors can be a challenge to find the great ones, but they are really out there.
Ok, now on to writing. Once you finished a book, I feel like you should “know” what you are doing, right? Wrong! I still feel like I’m a newbie at writing, or at least, at putting together an entire novel. It took so much work for me to get where I am today with Angst and I do have other ideas for new stories, but I almost feel like I can’t approach them, I can’t just jump in and let the writing flow. I need to be able to lose myself in a story, but for some reason I have these expectations of myself that I will be able to produce something great right away this time. Of course, that can’t be true, but try convincing me. I feel sort of stiff, like I can’t just let my imagination flow. It’s funny because in my head, things flow lovely, especially right before I go to sleep. I can write an amazing story, but when I try to sit down and pour that story into words on the computer, I feel stuck, just staring at that white page in front of me. I think beginning is one of the scariest things you can do. For me, I can’t decide when I start working on my next book if everything should be planned out ahead of time, like plot, characters etc, or if I should just let it flow and see what happens. I think letting it flow takes more effort on the back end to make everything come together into a cohesive story, but planning on the front end also leaves me stumped because I haven’t jumped in there yet and actually let the characters do what they want to do. The other challenge is knowing which story to tell first. I have probably 4 or 5 ideas in my head right now for novels, but they aren’t fleshed out yet. Which would be the best to pursue? And then there’s the possible second novel to follow up on Victoria’s story, but I’m not sure I’ve got that one in me yet. Hmmm…decisions, decisions! Being a writer is not easy!
Thirdly, let’s talk graphic design. Graphic design is one of my loves, like writing. Sometimes I feel that it comes easier to me than writing does because the visual just clicks with me. Writing is a love but it’s a harder mistress. Knowing what direction to take, knowing what kind of writing style to use, it’s all pretty complicated and there are so many options that I have a hard time nailing down what I’d like to do. This weekend, my main goal was to try to get my paper copy of my novel finished and ready for distribution on Amazon. I think one of the greatest things for a writer, is to finally see their book in print. I can’t wait until mine comes in the mail! Here’s what I’m proposing for my physical cover. What do you think? Would you pick up this book if you found it somewhere? I can see now that there are a few tweaks I need to make but I think this is pretty much what I’ll go with….