So I want to try something new around these parts, something more community minded because frankly, I want to get to know more of you out there in blog land and secondly I’m really tired of hearing myself yammer on about stuff.
I want some…communication!
I don’t want to be the so called “sage on the stage” (stole that from University professors, but you get the idea), I want to be part of a community! I want to talk with you, not at you. If this idea appeals to you, join me in a Bitch Session or as some might call it an Airing of Grievances or maybe an Online Therapy Session, whatever floats your boat. Because guess what? We’re all emotional creatures, we all have problems in our lives and getting advice from our fellow human beings with similar experiences is really the best way to solve them. So what I want to do here is to have people post problems, questions, conundrums, or links to your blog where you discuss a problem in the comments section and I’ll reply and hopefully other bloggers will reply to you as well! Do you want to play? Get in the sandbox! And I hope to do this with some frequency if you all will help me build an amazing sandcastle.
I’ve never admitted this to you guys before, but I’m going to here in the hopes that you can let me know what you think. So I’m an author, I’ve published a book, yippee, right? All is well! Ok, nope. So here’s the problem, my family doesn’t know! Well, I’ll clarify, my immediate family, my parents and brother know (although my parents have been banned from reading it), but no one else in my family knows. Not my aunts, or uncles or cousins or second cousins twice removed. None of them! They don’t know about my blog, they don’t know I’m attempting to tweet, they don’t even know I’m a serious writer. Whoa, I know. And it’s been really hard to pursue this without some kind of automatic fan base.
The reason I’m keeping them in the dark is two fold.
The biggest reason is that my family is rather religious and conservative and if you’ve read my book or even this blog you’ll know that I’m…a bit wild for their tastes. I like to swear, my book is full of scandal and I’m kind of a big mouth. Most specifically, I don’t want them to read my book because even though it’s fiction, some of the things in my novel did happen to me in some way or other although not how I present them in the book and I know they will assume that everything in the book is 100% me and exactly as it happened to me as well. The truth is…it’s kind of like my “teenage skeletons” that I tried desperately to hide from them for years and I don’t want them judging me or gossiping about me. This is almost a facepalm moment because, yeah, I wrote a book about it. I published it. Ha, joke is on me.
Can you please just imagine your conservative elderly grandma reading a book about your college escapades? Didn’t think so! 😉
The second reason is that my book is about panic attacks and anxiety and while some of them know a teeny-tiny part about this, most of them are completely in the dark and I really don’t want to broadcast it to them. I’ve told some of my friends about my novel and my panic attacks, but my family basically doesn’t know. Now, I know…I claim to be about honesty and I am! I really am. How does it feel to know that I’m being a coward in some way? I can share my novel, I can put all my thoughts out there for the entire world to read, however…my family, it’s a different story. Part of me hates having this big secret and fearing that they will find out.
So what do you think?
Should I tell them? And if I do, how should I let them know? I certainly love them, but I don’t want to blast them with something this personal. I know, this is ridiculous. It’s funny because I can share so much personal stuff with the blogging world or the world at large, but my own family doesn’t know. So…be my therapist. Tell me what you think!
And start the conversation below!
Tell me your problems, tell me those things that keep you up at night and read what others have to say. Comments galore! Bitch seshhhhh! Chat! Conversate with me! Please, please don’t leave a girl hanging, talk! (Ideas for our conversation, but not limited to: Mental Health, Money, Relationships, Work, Insanity, Problems with Time, Etc.)